2018

2018. This year has crept up on me before I even knew it. It’s a pretty special year for a number of different reasons. It will have been 10 years (in October) since I started this blog back in 2008, my freshman year of college. Though the frequency of my blog entries has greatly decreased, one of my goals this year is to blog (and journal privately) a little more frequently. Not that people read this, but it’s simply a good way for me to record random musings. A second reason why this year is special is because starting last Fall 2017, I started graduate school (and working full time)! My schedule is pretty packed, with ministry at church, and continuing to cultivate the relationships that God has gifted me. However I know it’s a season that I am in- it’s temporary, and when it ends, I will miss it, so I am trying to enjoy each moment as much as possible. Lastly, this year will be special because it will have been 14 years since I was first diagnosed with my autoimmune health condition. That’s half my life. A lot of emotions, thoughts, and memories come when I think about this, but I can honestly say now that aside from my salvation by grace, through Jesus Christ, this is the greatest gift that God has given me. This thorn in my side has humbled me, broken me at times, and reminded me of how sovereign, glorious and mighty our great God is. I’ll save the rest of my thoughts for another post in the future.

This year I’m looking forward to what may come. Because I am certain that God has a plan that is good and best. It will probably be difficult- not preferred circumstances, messy relationships, and a lot of unknowns, but to rest in the hope that Peter talks about is comforting.

(1 Peter) Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! According to his great mercy, he has caused us to be born again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, to an inheritance that is imperishable, undefiled, and unfading, kept in heaven for you, who by God’s power are being guarded through faith for a salvation ready to be revealed in the last time. In this you rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials, so that the tested genuineness of your faith—more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire—may be found to result in tpraise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ. Though you have not seen him, you love him. Though you do not now see him, you believe in him and rejoice with joy that is inexpressible and filled with glory, obtaining the outcome of your faith, the salvation of your souls.

Your ways, not my ways. Come what may, Lord.

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All the autumn feels

The wind blows gently
Cool crisp air brushes my face
Give thanks
Watching the breeze
Rustle the leaves as they gently fall
Onto the sun kissed ground
Give thanks
Rays of light pierce the chill
Warms my heart and makes
My soul sing and dance
Give thanks
Give thanks

 1 tAs a deer pants for flowing streams,

so pants my soul for you, O God.

uMy soul thirsts for God,

for vthe living God.

When shall I come and wappear before God?2

xMy tears have been my food

day and night,

ywhile they say to me all the day long,

“Where is your God?”

These things I remember,

as I zpour out my soul:

ahow I would go bwith the throng

and lead them in procession to the house of God

with glad shouts and songs of praise,

ca multitude keeping festival.

dWhy are you cast down, O my soul,

and why are you ein turmoil within me?

fHope in God; for I shall again praise him,

my salvation3 and my God.

My soul is cast down within me;

therefore I gremember you

hfrom the land of Jordan and ofiHermon,

from Mount Mizar.

Deep calls to deep

at the roar of your waterfalls;

jall your breakers and your kwaves

have gone over me.

By day the Lord lcommands his steadfast love,

and at mnight his song is with me,

a prayer to the God of my life.

I say to God, nmy rock:

“Why have you forgotten me?

oWhy do I go mourning

because of the oppression of the enemy?”

10  As with a deadly wound in my bones,

my adversaries taunt me,

pwhile they say to me all the day long,

“Where is your God?”

11  qWhy are you cast down, O my soul,

and why are you in turmoil within me?

Hope in God; for I shall again praise him,

my salvation and my God.

Throughout the passage, you see the psalmist distress, questioning, and fear. However with each question, he himself answers it with a truth about the character and person of God. I myself, am the person that talks to myself the most- more than anyone else talks to me (does that make sense?). We are constantly talking to ourselves about life, people, work, relationships and circumstances. We complain to ourselves, rejoice with ourselves, and ask questions to ourselves. Our response is very dependent on what fills our hearts and minds. Unfortunately I often allow my feelings to dictate my thoughts and responses- these are often over ridden by the influence of our self-centered world. Seeing the psalmist ‘ s godly responses here spur me onto hide God’s truth in my heart, so that in moments of joy and especially despair, we can shepherd our own hearts with pure, unaltered truths from the Bible. Dear sisters, let’s pray that God’s word would be a treasure to us!

Oh, hello

Wow, it’s been almost two years since I’ve posted anything. Lots have happened since. New job, new friends, new ministries at church…etc. But God remains the same and that’s the purpose of this blog right? I came back from our church’s joint singles retreat with a few other churches two weeks ago. It was a sweet and refreshing time. The ladies from my church that went started an email thread sharing bits of truth they have been learning each day. It really is encouraging to see sisters delighting in God’s precious truth! Here’s what I shared this morning.

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Psalm 51:1-2 “Have mercy on me, O God, according to your steadfast love, according to your abundant mercy blot out my transgressions. Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin.”

I’ve been greatly encouraged by the sharing 🙂 It’s so sweet to see sisters in Christ fellowship over God’s word! God’s character is clearly revealed in His word and it should lead us on our knees in awe of Him. Here we see God’s abundant mercy. As a part of our regular communion with God, we are to be praying and, more specifically, confessing our sins to Him. David here cries out to God after sinning again Him with Bathsheba. There is clearly no excuse for His sin, and David is well aware of that, but he is also aware that God is even greater and CAN forgive him. Let us run with devotion to purity, and with confidence before our Lord in prayer, readily confessing our sins, knowing He has already forgiven us!

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Maybe I’ll post more regularly, it’s always interesting to look back and read old posts. To see how God grows and humbles me, shapes my theology, and sanctifies me… considering I started this the beginning of my freshman year in college. That’s almost 8 years ago, wow.

To the 24th Me

Digging through old notes and things from college I just haven’t gotten to sort through and found this… 

Today is our last small group and it’s pretty bittersweet. I’ve been so blessed by these girls this year. Thank you Lord for them. It’s crazy to think that they’ve grown so much by you. Apartment mates and my class will truly be missed too. Lord, I hope and pray that at this time I would still be walking faithfully with You. I hope that there is something crazy and ambitious that I would be aiming for. XXXX told me the other day that it’s one of my weaknesses… and I know it is. I want to use what you’ve given me LORD, and maximize it for your glory. Maybe I’ll be better in Chinese, have more non-believing friends, maybe I’ll be closer to becoming a wife and mother, or some sort of artsy fartsy venture, who knows. Well, Miranda, I hope you are a friendlier, more approachable person, who smiles more and is gentle in spirit, knowing that my joy- true joy is from the Lord, I hope that I’ll be someone who values the things of heaven so much more than the temptations of the world. Here’s a verse that I hope can describe my life a bit more accurately… “More than that, I count all things to be loss in view of the surpassing value of knowing Christ Jesus, my Lord, for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them but rubbish so that I may gain Christ.” Phil. 3:8. To my future self… whom I hope is more mature, godly, disciplined, more gracious, more feminine, and a greater lover of God Himself and His glorious TRUTH. Soli Deo Gloria. -Miranda the 22nd.

 

Funny to read back on this because it doesn’t seem all that long ago that I wrote this– almost 2 years– but then again, life is much different than I would have imagined (well I didn’t really imagine anything….). It’s been an adventure looking for my first job, finding a church and new community of friends, growing in my relationships with parents and family, and being tested in my faith and my character through various small to big circumstances. God has certainly been true and ever- present through every moment. I can only pray that those things I wrote would continue to be a daily goal and longing. Maybe it’s time to write another letter to myself, to the 26, 27th me…..?

An Unconventional Pastime

Lately, I’ve discovered a new pastime– learning almost-extinct vocabulary words– in an attempt to liven up my language skills and increase my vocabulary. I happened across a most interesting website that lists hundreds of such words. Here is the beginning of my attempt at putting these words to use! #juuustforfun

A

In the midst of this seemingly aeviternal winter, I find myself longing for more aestival entertainment such as cultivating an apiarian interest or growing some mysterious adelaster. Or perhaps I should invest in more creative arts of algraphy or acrography or even weave armure.  Alas! I do now certainly consider myself an agromania this season after being cooped up for so long! I wish I could lay awake outside under a starrified summer night, hoping to just maybe see a fiery areolith fly through the night sky.

B

It recently came to my attention that there is a country full of Beatlemanias in which their form of government is barbarocracy. Most of its inhabitants regularly clothe themselves in either baft or barras. Though they long to wear barracan, the closest thing they can find to that are beaupers which the flagmakers must hide for fear of it being stolen. In the eastern part of the country, there is a bezesteen which sells the common burdet, borato, and other miscellaneous barrateen. After an extensive study on this strange nation, I discovered that the peculiarity was simply due to its bloviateous blackmasters. 

Psalm 1:1-8

Blessed is the man who walks not in the counsel of the wicked, nor stands in the way of sinners nor sits in the seat of scoffers. But his delight is in the law of the LORD and on his law he meditates day and night. He is like a tree planted by streams of water that yields its fruit in its season, and its leaf does not wither. In all he does, he prospers. The wicked are not so but are like chaff that the wind drives away. Therefore the wicked will not stand in the judgment nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous. For the LORD knows the way of the righteous, but the way of the wicked will perish.

Proverbs 3:1-12

My son, do not forget my teaching, but let your heart keep my commandments. For length of days and years of life and peace they will add to you. Let not steadfast love and faithfulness leave you. Bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart. So you will find favor and good success in the sight of God and man. Trust in the LORD with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge him and He will make straight your paths. Be not wise in your own eyes. Fear the LORD and turn away from evil. It will be healing to your flesh and refreshment to your bones. Honor the LORD with your wealth and with the first fruits of all your produce. Then you barns will be filled with plenty and your vats will be bursting with wine. My son, do not despise the LORD’s discipline or be weary of his reproof. For the LORD reproves him whom he loves, as a father the son in whom he delights.

It’s been 3 weeks since I started memorizing Scripture regularly. I can say that it’s been some of the more difficult weeks at work, church, and physically from a worldly view, but The LORD has been gracious in giving me a joy and contentment that could not have come from myself.

Things I’ve learned:
1. Knowledge of the Lord should follow in a heart change.
2. The Word of God is the foundation on which I should base my convictions, desires, and attitudes.
3. It’s a whole lot harder to trust in God than to simply obey Him. But there are rewards and promises for those who do both.
4. The word delight always connects back to the Word or God himself. The two things in which we are to delight in!
5. Reminded of how important God’s word is especially as our church prays and looks for a new pastor.

Other random thoughts: looking at how much Scripture I’ve memorized, I can’t believe it haha, but it’s been so rewarding and a delight in knowing God’s word. Repeating the verses every morning before breakfast, throughout the day, and before bed, the really stick! Hoping that God’s word is bound to my neck and written on the tablet of my heart! I’ve found that it’s helped my prayer life too in learning to pray through what I’ve read. Definitely something I want to learn more how to do as well! Thankful for my friend and sister in Christ who’s been by Scripture Memory Buddy! 🙂

All for His sake, to His glory.

a true treasure and delight!